… wow.
I really didn’t know how to title this post. I’m really speechless.
This has been the most special day of my entire life so far, and I cannot express my thankfulness enough times to those of you who made it special. I was telling Mrs.Houghton before I went on stage that the concert was the best birthday gift I have ever received. You guys are wonderful musicians, and it’s been my pleasure to have collaborated with you all. For the record, I really meant it when I wrote the last sentence of my bio. =)
I’m really tired, but I’m too excited to sleep. I’ll probably write more as the night goes on.
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Alright, so it’s now 2:27 in the morning. My prediction came true: I tried to sleep but couldn’t succeed. Physically tired, mentally excited. So I’m sitting on my bed with my laptop and writing more of my thoughts.
I was actually quite nervous before the concert. It’s not a matter of experience or logic, it just comes out naturally - think about Rubinstein shattering a glass before a concert due to nervousness and Horowitz had to be pushed onto the stage. My pre-performance syndrome is the feeling of throwing up - I can’t eat anything, if I do, I’d feel like vomiting; but if I don’t eat, where do I get the energy from in order to perform? My mom suggested that I should eat no matter what, and go throw up and come back eat again. I should practise that.
Parthi got very emotional after the concert, and I think I was still too into the performing mood that I did not really resonate. But now when I think about it, it’s been four years. I still remember the first day I stepped into the music hall wondering why all these people were so tall and I was so short; how I joined concert choir with Steph, Stella, Barbara, Jing and how much we used to laugh during the rehearsals. Feeder school tours, Madrigal Choir concerts, jazz band gigs, now the most memorable Rhapsody with Wind Ensemble. It all happened too quickly…. But I am ready to say goodbye, because only by departing can we realize the preciousness of one thing. I’m ready to put all these memories into a dainty box with a seal that says Woburn Music.
Oww.. now my stomach is hurting. I don’t know how I’m gonna drag myself to school tomorrow but luckily I only have 1 class. I’m a little tired now, and I think I’m gonna go back to lying on my bed and be awake for a few hours before sunrise.
p.s. I got the offer from Western Ontario U. 3/3, complete.
- just a day, music, thoughts | Time: 4:49 am (UTC+8)
Sophie I just figured something real important out:
Sleep > all.
Comment by kenjamin — May 6, 2005 @ 5:33 am
As I have probably said too many times already, Congrats!
You sparkled this evening, and it was a lot of fun.
What a memorable evening.
Comment by a — May 6, 2005 @ 5:35 am
Read my msn name. Sophie, you amaze me.
Comment by Justin — May 6, 2005 @ 7:29 am
I haven’t appear in the comments for a long while=P
Congratz!!!
*hug ya*
U’r the best!^^
Comment by heather — May 6, 2005 @ 1:08 pm
that feeling of nervousness might feel bad or scary, but when it’s all gone, it’s that which one really misses. so good, and u owned it
Comment by kenjamin — May 6, 2005 @ 9:10 pm
hey soph/….
as i said yesterday your performance was simply great………i knew u were so good in piano but yesterday night i saw it wiht my own eyes how well u conquered that challenging piece…..
I am deeply sorry for spoiling your wonderful night with my sadness…….i am extremely sorry i really wasnt expecting it my self…….just suddenly i spilled it out!
please forgive me
bye
Comment by Parthi — May 7, 2005 @ 1:49 am
Yes. Get some sleep. Or a lot of sleep.
Comment by stell — May 7, 2005 @ 3:12 am
you are much prettier than i thought!
Comment by i.s. — May 7, 2005 @ 4:15 am
=P you are much taller than I thought.
Parthi, there’s nothing you should feel sorry for! I totally understand your feeling. It was actually a good thing because I got to see the sentimental part of Parthi, hehe. And truthfully speaking, it really was an emotional night.
Aww, thanks everybody. And Ken, I totally agree with your 2nd comment (I didn’t really understand the Sleep>all thingy). The more nervous you feel before hand, the more accomplished you feel afterwards.
Comment by Sof — May 7, 2005 @ 4:39 am
you were fantastic
i just finished watching the video of your performance. heh, i never get to see you because i’m shoved in the middle of the ensemble, so that was my first time actually seeing you play. yes, you will get a copy, after i finish picking my jaw up from the floor.
Comment by tiff — May 7, 2005 @ 4:11 pm
Tiff, can I have a copy? Or a recording if there is one?
Comment by Justin — May 7, 2005 @ 10:43 pm
oo, nice. thanks Tiff. =)
Comment by Sof — May 8, 2005 @ 3:37 am
sure j. i’ll make you one.
Comment by tiff — May 10, 2005 @ 11:01 pm