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I learned how to make a pentacle with an elastic band and my fingers today. I was fascinated by it during my philosophy test when I was supposed to write. I almost did not finish the test because I got lost in pentacle-making.
Hmm… my room smells so good with the flowers, I’m falling in love with them. Speaking of aroma, I went to Eaton Centre last week and was given a card sprayed with JLo’s perfume. I put the card randomly somewhere in my shopping bag and put my shopping bag in my closet after I got back, and I’ve been smelling the JLo perfume whenever I openned my closet for about a week now, so strong. I wanna take it out but I have no idea where I threw it. =S
Viv and I went downtown shopping on Wednesday, I got some good stuff and a top for music banquet. Then we went to Da Ma’s （大妈）place to eat, her stuff was as good as ever. Then, we headed to the Faculty for a concert of a student who’s studying for master’s degree in piano performance, I also saw my possible future piano teacher. It was a great day.
Because I’ve decided to go to U of T for piano, we decided to move to a place that’s closer to downtown and also close to DVP so my mom can drive to work. My dad will be going back to China and I’m not ditching my mom to rent a place right in downtown (although that is reeaaally tempting, but one of the advantages of living with my mom is that I get free meals =P ) and she might go back to China sometime in the future as well so renting is the best idea. So, my dad and I went to look for places yesterday and we went to many locations, eventually drove to this area near the Science Centre, there was fantastic natural surroundings, and we found this little apartment that almost looked like a hermit’s place - it’s as if you are living in a forest away from the human society. Because the building is kinda old and not very good with the sound proof system, so I can’t really practise a lot if I live in there, I will probably spend the whole day at U of T practising, attending classes, and then come home to this hermit’s place. I really do have to practise at school more than I do at home, because nobody can handle a few hours of consecutive pracitsing; but can’t imagine myself spend 12h/day at the Faculty/downtown without a place to stay other than the practice room. Maybe this is a good thing, it’ll force me to stay in the practice rooms to practise more.
The whole looking for a place thing really hit me. I consider myself a bit anti-social and I don’t interact with strangers unless I have to, but when I had to talk to the superintendents and to ask very practical questions such as how much it costs to rent a place, what is provided in the room, and asking myself whether I can afford it, what I’m going to do if I don’t get enough money, eventually led me thinking about what I’m going to do after I graduate if I study piano. It’s not that I’ve never thought about this question, I’ve just never really looked at it so realistically. I have to admit, it was really kind of scary. Now I’m only 18 and I have my parents here with me, I have friends I know well, I live in an area which I’ve been living four almost 5 years, I really don’t know how I’m going to cope with a completely unfamiliar environment. Unlike many people I know, CBC or new immigrants alike, they are here in Toronto and they know they’ll root here. For me, I know this is just going to be my second home country and I’ll be always drifting around. I’m not at the stage where I need to think about a place where I can always come back to and I don’t want to think about it either - because there’re so much of the world that I want to explore. However, it is quite hard to live without the feeling of security and without knowing there’s always a place you can go back to, where you can just live happily until you die. And personally, it is equally scary if I waste my whole life renting a pathetic place to live for the rest of my life without doing any of the things I want to do - and by then I suppose I’ll have to rely on God’s word if I want to live happily.
Yo-Yo Ma’s Bach music soothes me.
- just a day, thoughts | Time: 5:05 pm (UTC+8)
Female usually feel stresful when moving a new place. Understood! of course, me too.
Find a fine place if you could.
Comment by i.s. — May 13, 2005 @ 6:11 pm
Yo-Yo Ma is great.
If you actually have any of those albums of his, I totally need to borrow them.
Comment by Ivan — May 13, 2005 @ 10:38 pm
woot i have this cd of yoyo and emanuel ax playing Prokoviev and Rach cello sonatas. the first time i listened to, i died coz it was so good.
ya, it depends on how you spend your time at faculty tho. if you’re stuck with one of those really really really crappy upright rooms that can fit 3 people, then that’s really bad luck. or u can go to RCM just a few stations down and get a room there (if ejb students are still allowed), coz there’s not a single practice room without a grand, and select grands are excellent.
Comment by kenjamin — May 13, 2005 @ 10:45 pm
I ain’t lendin’ you nothin’ until you give back my Rach and Yundi CDs. =P
That Ma CD is quite old, no? Have you seen his picture from like 15 years ago? He looked like my dad (well.. and still does…). Haha.
If I’m allowed to go there, I’ll probably go practise on the grands there. Or I can stay in one of the classrooms, they have good grand Yamahas.
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