blankness
Insulting people isn’t funny, really.
It’s yearbook signing time. I’ve seen a lot of “I’ll miss you”s in people’s yearbook and felt really fake. I did not like Woburn that much, and certainly I will not miss the majority of the people. But the few I can count with my hands, I will miss tremendously - I’m sure to the point I can dream about them and wake up in the middle of the night, crying.
Mom was worried about something and I think what I said was perhaps a bit too harsh - or maybe not, but because my mom got mad at my utterance she almost went ballistic and said:”Yeah, I see you are finally growing up.” I felt I must have done something wrong. This is how I’m brought up - to be humble enough to accept anything and everything people tell me I’ve done wrong. They can say bad things to me without really knowing it’s really a weakness of mine, but I’d take it very seriously and let my world crumble inside. Vanity is bad? I say everyone should possess a bit of that - or else they’ll be left alone brutally peeled, flesh by flesh. Am I ever going to be strong enough? I don’t know. What I do know is, there’re many people just like me, and they can’t bear to take the cold words - and also the fact that I myself randomly say things without thinking, hurting many people.
Why is communicating sincerely with each other so hard? Why is it that we have to say bad things to hurt others to protect ourselves from being hurt? I don’t know what I want, or what I have. I’m really blank.
Perhaps if something never starts, it will never end.
- just a day, thoughts | Time: 6:36 pm (UTC+8)
Sophie, I love you too
Comment by tiff — June 9, 2005 @ 7:55 pm
hey you. =) long time no see. saw prom pix. so amazingly pretty =DDD. cant’ believe u’re going to uni so soon. has it really been that long? wow. lol. juz wanted to leave a note that i was here and i misssss you!!!!. at least we haf great memories =). i live SO CLOSE to woburn now. should go visit you someday. =)
Comment by tee — June 11, 2005 @ 11:32 pm
oo, you really SHOULD visit me since I’m moving in less than 20 days
and I missss you too, hehe. I’m sure you are doing really well and if you are planning to go to UT, I’ll be looking forward to seeing you there. 
Comment by Sof — June 12, 2005 @ 10:34 am
fwjuv
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