I am Sof.

Yesterday I had a super bad stomachache in the record of history. I was close to a point which I could pass out - but unfortunately I didn’t, otherwise I wouldn’t have to suffer through the torture. It’s amazing how much one can do with just mental concentration - I never take pain killers but just concentrate, especially on a piece of music, and the pain would be alleviated. Bach, Bach partita worked.

I got up this morning, feeling slighly better than yesterday, and went to the kitchen filled up a biiig cup of water. Came out and sat on the balcony, drinking water, overlooking the scenery, doing nothing else but feeling relaxed. I suddenly felt very… happy, contented, blessed, peaceful, beatific, whatever word you choose; just the feeling that I know I’ve never really had and probably won’t have again in a long time; just sitting here doing nothing, worrying about nothing, fearing nothing, knowing I’m not alone anymore, knowing I’ll be doing exactly what I’ve always dreamed of doing for probably the rest of my life, I smiled.

University course selection package is received this morning. Courses like lyric diction and Italian/English masterclass are only available for opera majors or with the permission of the instructor, jazz music arrangement is also the same, only open for jazz majors unless with instructor’s permission. Seems like someone has a few talkings to do with the instructors. I wanna take the two music history survey courses coded with 2nd year numbers in my first year, learned from Daniel, try to spare some workload for the last 2 years for more practice time. As for the mandatory ensemble courses offered for piano majors, I decided to join the MacMillan Singers, although 4h/week rehearsal time is quite a load, but there’re a lot of performing opportunities that I’m looking forward to such as with the Toronto Symphony Orchestra and in the Bach Festival (which I think our own Madrigal Choir will also attend). Still haven’t decided on the Arts and Science electives - classical Chinese, history, art, philosophy, anthropology… too much I want to learn.

I feel so suffocated being stuck at home. If we didn’t have a balcony, I’d die. Looking forward to the outing tomorrow.

p.s. I found a good source of ebooks/etexts: http://www.gutenberg.org